++ReAdinG HeR JoY & SoRrOwS++
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
1:54amDin
''dont believe everything in the cyber world
thats the only thing i can
say"
Thanx u so much for reminding me for 'whats happen in cyber world'.
Theres a lot of things happen in cyber world and seriously, i'm sick of these people, guys who want to take advantage on us ladies. I'm not taking the risk. I know that Shake wanted to help too but i felt that i'm such a big burden to him. He's a friend from cyber that i known and its like how much possibility, the trust i'm gonna have in him? I'm losing faith in everything.
When I saw his face I was so delighted but somehow or rather, I wouldnt wanna show him that I'm truly obsessed over him. Its like, the more you're gonna show your love to a guy, the more advantage he will have towards you. So, I wouldnt wanna use word love cause, the love wasnt too deep. Still, I have this phobia thingy always attack me which its hard for me to forget. The past still haunts no matter what or how I'm gonna live.
I'm freaking restless. Monday was the worst ever day that happen in my life even though I had a great time hanging out at the library at Bugis, doing some research and learning new things upgrade my resume. Hafiz too tagged along and thanx to him, he showed me where the study corner is. Alas, its a comfortable place to learn and munch at a same time. I'm loving it.
I had a restless night and which I have to be in school by 9am to see Jon. Indeed I was late to meet him. My instincts was telling me "right". I shouldnt have come all the way down coz the interview sessions was canceled.but nvm, i wore slacks today, just my hood and ma jeans n slippers...lol..
Everyone's whose having the Assessment, i'm wishing them good luck and success.
I nearly hit by a car on a tuesday morning. I was actually tired. I was like .. I only had 4 hours of sleep and blurh wake up early in the morning.... I was sleepy and that mercedes which nearly gonna hit me make me chasing him by the back. When he stops at a junction, all i do was screaming at that man and last word i said was " arghhh fark". Yeah after that i'm kind of like 70% awake.
Was supposed to have meal with Shakey but I went home instead after I met Ash and his mum and he send me home. Since my school is near to his home, i park at his home carpark and i told him, "damn i realy realy need your help, i truly cant bear with my eyes, please send me home after this.. if not i will die at PIE...i'm to weak to ride and i got no money to take cab..."
erm yeah Ash mum bought for me 3 new dresses.. I was so touched. Thanx u so much! I never expected this since you know that me and yr son are not in a good term..hehe... Yeah , in fact i was craving for things from KL and yeah, his mum got it for me. I was shocked and surprised though.... The last tyme she bought me things was last 1 year ago...hmmm yeah...
Anyway yeah...now i cn chew something in my mouth! I got BuBle gum that she got it last few days at Batam.... Happy sey!!!
Anyway, thanx Ilango for singing me a song... i think SONGS... cool... u had a nice voice man! k for now, i got to go sleep. Truly Badly shaggs.... continue tmr!
I wanna go JB later~ yawnssss~~~
+++++ThIs BlOg BeInG UpDaTeD By AiLaH`22 a.k.a DeAdSoUL,SwEeTiEpIe LoVeS MiLkShaKe+++++
+++++WaDeVaR I wrOtE NOt GoNna CoNcErn AnY OuTcAsT ExCePt My TrUe SoULeSs FreNZ+++++
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Random Pics taken On beautiful Sunday
~~~Just wanNa updaTe some random pics of my day with my family not included was my second brother. Just my family, my brother's fren and his family and the rest of the people who have attended the MCYS sports family fiesta. Its a great and tiring tho my leg cant take up much longer to walk. Nutin much to say out now as I'm happy what I'm going Through right now~~~
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Saturday, December 05, 2009
Saturday, December 05, 2009
random pics uploaded!
raul... was repairing....
thnx u chef joel for the rose.
this carrot riose was given by chef joel.
its raining n so i have to dry my jeans.... kesian ekh?
kitchen, most food sold out on friday afternoon due to rain.
my butt!! hehe
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+++++WaDeVaR I wrOtE NOt GoNna CoNcErn AnY OuTcAsT ExCePt My TrUe SoULeSs FreNZ+++++
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Menses hit me
I'm feeling gloomy today. On top of that i'm hurt. I dont know why and whats gotten wrong with me I just couldnt find the answers there. Its hanging.
Everyone was asking me how me and As, Its normal, we're just not attached but still contactable. I treated him just the same as how i treated all of my friends. The worst November incident last year which makes me phobia of getting hoOk on again. Even though i'm free like a bird but most times I feel truly lonely and stuck up. I just dont know who to go out with and who to share my problems with.
Shaik... my another ex... he's a nice guy. Only As and Shaik are the ex that i contacted with for now which its like once in a blue moon me or they calling me. Argh, i felt helpless... seriously...
Dont know whATs going on with me today. I'm just feeling bad. Truly bad. I was pissed with my menses. The pain is unbearable and its like seriously my mind was way out of control. I got this stupid maigraine hitting me. I dont know what i say but seriously i never meant to hurt anyone at work and at home. Mum was kinda bit shocking at me but i just ignored that and went to my room n here i go leting out my emotions.
About Raven, I'm quiete worried about him as he didnt called me. I was like how am i suppose to call him? If he calls, i wouldnt be able to pick up the calls as i am working. I am hoping he will be fine. Hope he will live long. I'm sad over his illness that happened to him. I pray to god hoping he will be fine.
As, I'm hoping that you could pay back all the money that u owed my mum. I'm tired of being a third party. N I hope that if thats true u love Maria, just go ahead. I dont lose anything but I will pray for your happiness in life. What ever is past is the past my dear, I have no regrets as all i take it as a learning path. If one day we are meant to be together again, I hope I wont have to suffer again and hope that u keep no more lies and violence. I'm much more dissappointed at the way u abuse my cats before but i am not dissappointed at the way u abuse physically and verbally because all this makes me learn lots of new things. We broke up and patch up lotsa times giving you time to cool off but you will never change. All i pray to god is to lead you where you went lost.
Lyn, i truly miss working with you much. Seriously. You're the one who makes me happy and letting me be my own self. I'm wishing you all the best gal! anyway gal, i know u will say me gembeng again but seriously i always cry at least at work becoz everytime i think of u, i will cry. Argh... dont call me gembeng ok... but seriously i loves you much gal. I never had a friend like you before but i know u have to go...
Other guys.... I dont know why most of the guys i know are too sensitive and like you know trying to control my freedom. COME ON MAN, I DUN CLUB, I DUN DRUNK, I DONT TAKE DRUGS THUS I GOT CURFEW AND SO WHY THE HELL YOU GUYS DONT TRUST ME AND NOT EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTANDS ME. I had enuff of 5 years stuck with one guy with no freedom. All i do in the past was family work and boifren. Come on, give me a time break. I had a hard time to endure with the break up and up to this day, I get emotional... Its like One year i cant get over it even though we have to keep in touch and stay as frens but the trauma is there which makes me hard to forget what happened. His parents already hated me coz i was hospitalised after the beat up by him and reported to police. Due that family bond becomes too stiff even tho i old his parents that he was forgiven and we stay as frens. Its stupid yes but i have to as he owed us a lot...esp from my mum.
Me.... I'm stuck up now. Every one seems about to hate me today becoz i'm in a bad bad mood.
I just got this feeling which i cant resolve. I'm missing him at work. Always thinking am i such an irritating bitch at work? I just dont know but seriously, I'm getting my pace slow. No mood to work. haiz... Tiring larh.
I hope tomoro Snake will come to work. I have lecture him from up to bottom and all i could do is just hoping.
Argh.... i cant let this things out...
Everytime at work when he's not ard i feel like a shit in my heart. I start wonder and ponder, did i fall for him? No cant! I only regard him as my adik... no way no way... pls pls pls...
But why did i get jealous for sey when he talk to my another colleague? I just dont know how to explain things in words but all i wanna do is to stay focus..
My weight!! i put on weight!! arghhh!!!!!! i need to jog. Its been 3 weeks sharp i nvr went out for jog. N this week i really need to! with or without anyone to follow.
Now, i got to have some lil nap...
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+++++WaDeVaR I wrOtE NOt GoNna CoNcErn AnY OuTcAsT ExCePt My TrUe SoULeSs FreNZ+++++
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
UpSet
Went to the polyclinic today at 1130am when its abt to close but lucky the nurse pity me and let me see the doctor since I was refered by the private clinic.
I'm quiete upset because i've not yet recovered still. I'm still on medication. I'm upset because i find myself hard to do my house chores like normally i do. Even doing my prayer, my left wrist got tensed when i'm doing sujud position. Oh god. I'm truly stress because I need to work to pay my fees, bike instalment, starhub net and certain home bills. I do not not know if my salary is enough to gave my mum. I'm stress.
Indeed i've been crying. Firstly yesterday my classmates attitude really makes me sad. I dont know and cant say it out now since my left wrist persists, i cant type much in here.
But, i'm truly dissappointed. Firstly I am happy that i could go to another organisation to work but i'm fighting for justice over my old work place that i work. I am not satisfied by the remarks given through mail that i read which Jon showed it to me on Thursday noon after the class ended. I am surprised but i will fight over it because my injuries got nothing to do with my old injuries!!!
Thanx yOu So much Jo, the OM at Coffee Club Siglap. I will never forget the way u sabotage me. I told you I can work, got nothing to do with the old injury and i need rest even u said its unpaid leave, i dun mind i dun get the pay but i truly need rest for my stupid wrist injury. U said everything you will tell mazlan but i am surprised that u sabo me by telling false statement.
Will continue this stupid story tmr. ToO distraught again...
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Injuries persist
ArGhH! Hate it man when i have to take mc.
I injured my wrists. Seriously. I dont know why it must be me have to suffer this injury state. During my shift, I just dont understands why the manager pick on me to do station 2 and 3. Its like not fair for me becuase I've been doing station 2 and 3 without swopping since last week on day 1. Only once I can do hosting and buzzing when my manager took an MC.
On Friday, I felt a sharp pain on my left wrist. It was only I realised in the morning that the sharp pain gets worsen thus my back on my left was aching. I had a hard time to get up! I have no choice but wasted money at a private clinic since polyclinic is closed on a public holiday. My left wrist was swollen is all due to carrying trays back to back doing buzzing and serving. Its like a none stop hits on Friday night. Even though theres no full house at the rest, but still i have to do lotsa work. When I just returned from clearing the dirty utensils, the manager who had just cleaned the dirty plates at another table, passed me the tray with dirty plates that were stacked up to me. Everytime I walked pass by her, she will eventually passed it to me even when theres a tray of food or drinks thats supposed to be sent to customer by her. She rarely sent the items to customer or clearing the tables. She will directly asked me to do it. Even if she were to clear the tables, when she saw me she will pass it to me instead of her going to the back to clkeaner's station. Only when i'm fulled, then she do it on her way. I mean, come on man, i'm not a robot, at least give me a few secs to exercise my hand. I am barely tired with my left hand not my legs instead.
I went to the doc at Bedok 24hrs clinic with my boyfie. Thanx to him coz he's working on a night shift and he had to send me to see doc. I was weak and tired due to my back and my hand went numb, I kept vomitting. After seeing the doc, i got an mc for a day, actually i was supposed to have a week mc to rest my hand, but i told doc, i am ok, one day is ok. Its like a week mc...what am i supposed to do in life man?
I was wondering, why am choosing this line? Passion? But when injuries came, will anyone bothered to care? I was upset when the OM said to me that i am not fit and suitable for the work. I can work but its not about my old injuries thats coming back to me. Even the doctor said to me that my new injuries was the wrist thingy. Nothing got to do with the old one. The way she interpret was to harsh. Not only that, I was disappointed at the way she talked behind my back. How can she said that to Siti that me n her always have activities going on. What the hell is she trying to label us? What a fark! My injuries came in a sudden is all due to that fave manager of hers.
As far as i'm concern theres no error in handling the trays. I have experience working as waittress before. N why the hell there would be errors to it. Its the mistake that i had to do back to back clearing the tables and serving the customers none stop. Especially when the back to back was the manager pass me her tray thats loaded heavily. The most thing that i couldnt lift was the sugar bowls. Argh!!!
I'm hoping for a speedy recovery.
I'm tired now. I need to take my medicine and rest to sleep.
I was hoping that the swollen on my wrist is not fractured by the bones. *sobs*
--ssighs--
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Friday, October 16, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
=Just random=
This Is random... Haha... I Love this toilet.... seriously... Its at Bedok esso mart. LoL.. Convenience for me to make my business of the day. hahaha... I dont know why i kept talking abt business thingy becoz i was addicted by the prata shit story. hahaha... I GuesS My classmates know what we're talking abt. Since the day I learnt about food contamination and of the dieseases, i dont feel like eating but hey, I still eat that juicy chicken.
yeay! Thats me and Siti. At a coffee shop, having a smoke break after school. Random
Thats ma Lecturer so called our trainer... She's cool man!
Ok... I was wondering who is that guy behind us.... Peek A PeEk!
I love this picture. No one knows I tOoK their Image when All were busy looking at Mr Maslan.
=On the 14th was ma off day, i was stress with house work and so, Ash and me headed to Johor just for Fun and make a detour journey back to Singapore. Thought of eating the prata there but when i saw the guy scratching his head, my appetite turned off.
Reached Singapore, we headed to SQ Centre at Paya Lebar for the return of the form.
Had our lunch at KFC. As usual nothing but chicken and cheesy friesy... hehe..
Had a hair cut at ma homey area... This is how my short hair looks like for now.... Its a no choice situation when it comes to grooming at work..
Guess what? I saw a $2 note on the floor. I do not know what to do with it. Its a miracle as i was in short of $2 to for my hair cut. Ash saw it on the floor and he pointed it out at me. I was shocked to see the note there. Its weird like how come in a sudden the note was in front of us. Thought of going to the mosque to donate the money instead i used it for a hair cut yesterday and today went to mosque after Isyak without wearing my tudung, sneak in like a thief and donate the $2 at the tin donation box at a staircase area. Phew! ** Hope god forgave me for using the $2 found note yest.
SpoT WhErE Is AsH?
Could YoU SpOt HiM????
OpZ..not ready larh!
Damn! Ash NevEr ZoOm Me! But The Background he focused more...argh!
FrOm ThE ToP, My lEg WeNt ShAkY! YiKeS!!
ACtUaLLY I M Afraid of heights!
+TireD N ReStLeSs+
Ps: What ever now, I am putting the family thingy problems aside. I am just stressing out with my fave red sony ericsson hp that's been using for 2 years. My Hp Really really dead, cant on at all and i lost everyones number becoz one stupid thing happen that is i forgot to save everyones number in the sim card. I do not know how come it's dead! So careless of me. I got no hp at all for now. I only used my mum's hp when I have to go to work or to class. Other than that, anyone searching for me, my phone will be off and will reply at night once I got to use my mum's hp.
Thanx you guys for giving time to understand my situation.
=Norimah, just wanna let you know that, no matter how hard it is to cope in financial situation, dont ever give up on studies and work. Achieve what you want and your dreams. Go for it. When you need help, others in your family may help you if you try to ask for their help. Dont give up. 9 of us should achieve the dreams we want...=
= I am happy that i scored full marks for the test today. I was expecting Ivan to score all. I was nearly in tears because the questions are very very tricky. After i finished doing the test, I just hung up to the loo. I didnt know that I can manage the questions slowly. This is just the first test. I dont know if I am able to cope with the role play test. Seriously, I dont know. these tests are truly difficult than the course that i took for WSQ CSP under SQC. One thing that I am happy to share is, my classmates are all good. We help one another so that no one will have to drop from the dip course. We have to go through all the shits no matter what happens..... Man, I have to be patient enough and not to give up..... :_( =
Alright for now i got to go. I am barely tired. Time to DoZe OfF!
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+++++WaDeVaR I wrOtE NOt GoNna CoNcErn AnY OuTcAsT ExCePt My TrUe SoULeSs FreNZ+++++
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
==Releasing my thoughts and feelings== I dont need any feedbacks... Thank YoU!!!
SInce my dad past away in year 2000, I was longing to be around my paternal family members but I know, up to this day, its a forbidden city for me to enter. SO, what i learn now, when the eldest in the family who is a man, who passed away, the paternal sides will severe the ties in silence.
Its no use coming back to them because its like showing we are begging and craving the love from them.
When my dad dies, I feel so ashame at my one of my dads' sister who has no shame at all, within a day begging money from my mum hundreds of dollars to help her with financial difficulties. WHAT A SHAME MAN!
When i was young, my dad wanted to borrow few amount, they shooed my dad away like a dog, mistreated her own brother and even said my uncle the third one, never let her to give money to my late dad. When my dad was in need, they treated my dad like trash! When my dad eventually work hard, has money, they themselves in return need help from my mum and dad which my dad has never ever let their family down. I was ashamed why my dad's sis acting that way. Everything happen in front of me. Things always happen in front of me when i was a kid.
I was a quiete person, I observe everything and that why up to this very age, I wont forget every lil bits that happen in my life. The pain and sufferings that my family has gone through.
She blackmail my uncle by saying that my uncle use blackmagic on her, cursing her, 'terbalik kan rempeyek' etc etc etc.... Everything she confides with my mum. When Ilah getting engage, "wow!!!",know what, she called my mum telling about it, gossip abt her bro this and that but when it comes to Aidah's engagement she never ever called my mum and gossipping abt it. When my mum came, its like, she was in shocked seeing my mum came to Aidah's engagement event.
What makes me hate their family more is because her own son whom i thought can trust has betrayed me. He told off my stories to my cousin Aidil and even saying my guy was looking fondly at my other cousin Tri. He promiese me not to tell my stories to anyone but hey look, what did he did by telling my cousin??
In order to know the truth, i did something stupid, by just giving a compliment and a remark at my cousin's (Aidil) testimonial at friendster. From there I know he will surely call me because when i asked for his number, Jai didnt gave me. Not only that, i was pissed because he said he already book the van and were supposed to share but ended up i have to meet him at a car shop at jurong there and i myself paid for it. Of course i am pissed sia! janji tengahari tapi me and my brother yang kene naik taxi to jurong just to wait for the van which was not even at all been paid. Because people play me out, of course i have to give them the shit back. In my life, I had enough of shits given. Working life, people giving me shit is ok but when it comes to life style, when people gave me shit without a good purpose, i will make sure they eat my shit too in return. I will make sure they feel the pain like how they gave me pain (but i will never do this to my good buddies and colleagues... haha).
Dear Mum,
I am proud of you. When dad dies, you're the sole bread winner. You have never beg people fpr money but you work hard just to support me and my 2 brothers. I am ashame of what my fathers side did to you except i know only mak nah, bik jun, pak dol, mak ngah families are good.
Pak San used to said that you are the one who always control my dad but i know, u have never ever control dad. People may say lotsa negatives, criticism....etc.. about you, mum, but still you are being a strong woman to handle lotsa things in life. I am proud of you. No matter how much at times i may hate your nagging but I still love it. Its all about your love towards us that u showered everyday without failed..
I feel your pain but u will always say the positive things just to let things cool off.
Their children may not understands what happen in the past because they dont bother about their parents feelings nor care what happend that makes the ties severe but for me, i do care dad and your feelings and thats why I have the rights to fight for you because everything they did, was all "LIVE" and "TRUE" in front of me. I may bear grudges but i will forgive them but i'm seeking god to punish them one day right in front of me because my dad, ABU SAMIN will never forgive them who did sin to his family. Thats his promise. =Let Go and Let God= Amin...
===A Copy of the message that i sent to my cousin, ilah, as an evidence of what i said to her for the last===
"Hey do read up ma blog at ashailah dot blogspot dot com
Just anything text me if anything coz i'm busy with lotsa stuffs and tired of problems.
Hey,
How have you been...
Sorry I was busy lately like what i've told you that i'm grabbing my diploma. Hope my dreams come true.
Anyway, I do not know what was the rumuor that's been adding till yr dad fall sick and its like the fingers been pointing back at me.
Remember what we promised each other? We promised whatever we talked its just among us and its us to make the parents be back as normal and forget the past. Whatever we know its among us and I dont understands which part of the story you told yr dad. Even at Kak Aidah's engagementt pun Ailah dah ckp to yr dad in front of the rest that "Insyallah, one day i will come". I never make a bloody promise to come coz i noe its nt right tyme for me.
Coz even i wanna come i still have to seek my mums approval. I cant just go like that without informing her. She's only ok when i going out with cousins but she wont be ok if i were to meet my cousins parents without her knowledge sey. I hope u will be able to understand this. But anyway, Just wanna let u know, what ever u said abt what my mum salam u n the way she reacted to u in the past, i nvr tell her till today coz i belive secrets arent nt meant to be let out. If i were to tell her what ever u said to me confirm there will be war 3 in the family again.
I am matured enough to think what is right and wrong but I failed to recognised about trusting you.
I have no intentions to pisahkan keluarga and what i said is truth but what ever it is, I still have the rights to say it out walaupun ur bro says org tua nya hal jgn masuk campor, i think thats a wrong idea to do that. Still, we as the children have the rights to solve our parents problem which if the elders find hard to settle among themselves for years and years.
whatever we talk is all what we talk, its not meant to tell everbody u see.... i dont understands why u did that. whatever u told me the whole story of the past, i nvr been bothered to let my mum know... in which now she has already know after i went sobbing and showing her all the messages that yr bro scold me thru msn, eventually i told her what ever happens bt still what u said abt my mum, i keep it numb.
Anyway, my phone spoilt, seriously deadly everyones number is gone coz i nvr saved it in my sim card.
Anyway, if u got anything, leave me a message at my tagboard at my blog.
Just for u, ni AMANAH, dont let anyone of the family members to know my blog address. Its only just u, my maternal cousins and my frens and colleagues.
Cheers!
+in life theres no one whom u could trust even ur own blood. The person whom u can trust is your own self, not anyone. Just a thought of the day for u. gd nitez!+
=ailah= "
I vowed not to keep in touch with my paternal side anymore. I have made my promise to mum. 2007 is a shit and the last that I find my cousin but when it comes for this year again, the shit happened again. I thought that i can trust Ilah after that bloody BAPOK Jai betrayed me but tgk sama jugak. Immatured, certain things also need to tell parents. How she interpret to her dad, i also dont know, ended up i get scolded by her brother for nothing when in fact, his own sister was the one open up the old story first. Its like she said its between us so its between us n the rest she said why nt see her father and talk and i say one day i will when i am truly free.
Imagine lah, my job scope as Operation Executive in a security Industry, its a tough job and even my working hours arent fixed and how am i to tell that i will be free till one mamak sabo me till i fed up i resign coz enough said, thats nt the industry that i want. Even after my resignation, I need time to choose what I really want in Life.
Its enough for me and my family to suffer again. When dad dies, thats it, they are nothing to me coz they never care abt his/her brothers' children.. Even fitrah adik2 ku and me dulu pun tak bayarkan ended up for all the years since 2000 my maternal uncle Cik Salleh yg bayarkan. Rabak kape. Thats the most shameful ever. Evryone was like asking " hey why yr fathers side never help bla bla bla..so what should i answer man??? Of course my answer is easy, they never exist after my dad dies 2 years later on." The last i saw they come for a raya visit at my house was in year 2002, i still have those pics, after that everyone's gone clean and sheet.
The only person who wasnt gone was Mak Mi and family. The husband and wife always trying to contact my mum only when their financial dries up. What a shame. Look at them now, no house to live jumping on from one place to another by renting ppls house.
So this is a lesson for others too, when people need help, do help them sincerely, never let others down when they in need. No matter who they are,a handicapped, aged, poor, young children etc.... you will never know what if one day u were rich and in a sudden became poor, who else gonna help you when u in need. If u treat people like trash, in future time, others will treated you double impact. If you're humble,kind,sincere and generous, in future, others will help you in a lot of ways. God will always be there. So do good things when you are still alive.
In life theres always Karma. take it as a lesson what you did. But things that you never did, it happened bad to u, take it as god is teaching you something to learn in life. Dont give up.... coz i was once used to give up when god is testing me lotsa things in my life.
+++My Mum is My Everything, my bestfriend, my Mum+++
=ailah signs off=
+++++ThIs BlOg BeInG UpDaTeD By AiLaH`22 a.k.a DeAdSoUL,SwEeTiEpIe LoVeS MiLkShaKe+++++
+++++WaDeVaR I wrOtE NOt GoNna CoNcErn AnY OuTcAsT ExCePt My TrUe SoULeSs FreNZ+++++
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
-GaWd I Am SupeR DuPeR TireD-
OuCh! really had a hard time. This time i didnt know who to shed out my tears. I really cry because it happen right in front of me. The customer ordered Quiche and i did repeat her order twice but in fact i repeated it again thrice because one thing i am making sure that i will never make a mistake but in fact its like as if i did a mistake. Seriously I am pretty tired for the day as i didnt grab breakfast today but i still manage to entertain the customers. I am pretty upset about the quiche order when my manager in charge of the day today were sending the customer's food and when she sent it, the customer said she didnt even order that. Its like what the *&%$!!! I repeated three times and she said ok and i even smile and say thank you for bla bla bla and after that one of the order turns other way round. I even ask the barista guy whose name is Agun, work longer enough at the store so i asked him and he even corrected me by saying yes there's only one quiche at CC.
I wasnt upset with the customer but the Manager herself. I really swear i saw her rolling her eyes, frowning in front of the other customers looking grumpy with red face and as if she's pissed at me as if I was making wrong order. She told me to go for break and I did and guess what? After my break time at 1408hours, I came back for my duty.... the manager in charge told me to do ONLY BUZZING and NEVER EVER TAKE ORDER. Through out the day, i was pissed off but I never show it to the customers nor to the other manager or the outlet manager. I make myself cool but each time I saw the grumpy manager, i went sulk. Seriously, why cant she just ask instead of telling Viv not to take wrong order again in front of me and after that telling me just to do buzzing.
Yes, I may not know some of the meals in the menu but at least when Customers approached me asking for order and pin pointing, i did do the s.o.p.... argh.... I dont wanna talk about it now... I am tired...
My day today is ruined. Instead of having a good dinner, the food taste bad. So far the services treated is very well done but the food is bad.
The waiters are friendly, smile with big teeth about to pop out..hehe... the explaination given is good but one "Pekak" waiter serve wrong food to the wrong table without asking what we're having and what is the name of the food being serve...
Look at my Tom Yum Soup (AS USUAL i will always take food photo), Its not appetiz'in at ol! The chilli was not grind thinly and blend, too oily and bit yucky even though its trying to give that taste "spicy". Still, the kopitiam thats opposite Joo Chiat there beside ITE Geylang there is not up to my taste. Thats gonna be my first and the last.
Ash ordered Beef Kway Teow instead he got seafood kway teow.... haha.. Ended up i ate it all... ok half half... still... only the kway teow taste good... The server wants to change back to Beef but I told him, theres not a need to coz i understands them, it will be a big troublesome for the cook to re cook... lol..Below is my prata and i ate it 1/4... cOz its a burnt paper prata... which i asked only the normal prata. It looks burnt and very crispy.... arrrghhh....haha.... N the curry fish really sucks.... Its watery...not curry at all... should call it water curry fish.... haha
Guess what, the 2 days ago, I was super stress hungry . My mouth was itching and craving for something to munch... n Yes, I got this superb Blue Coral Bubble tea near my house at block 158. Its better now. I used to hunt bubble tea at marine parade but now not anymore, I can go along with a set with cheese fries or nuggets or even a hot dog at that cafe 158!! CoOL HuH!!Its only costs less than $3.... Something to munch, why not grab the wedges...
++Opsss... sorry to add on, the sizzling hot dog is chicken but nt halal... ++
Yeah... thats Ash..... hahah...
Talking abt the few days, The 2 days course at CC is NOT ENOUGH. If only its a 5 days course! Me!! so addicted taking pics in the loo!
+++++ThIs BlOg BeInG UpDaTeD By AiLaH`22 a.k.a DeAdSoUL,SwEeTiEpIe LoVeS MiLkShaKe+++++
+++++WaDeVaR I wrOtE NOt GoNna CoNcErn AnY OuTcAsT ExCePt My TrUe SoULeSs FreNZ+++++
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Sick..wont update much!
Sunday, went out with my family at my aunt and uncle house. Deadly serious i aint not feeling well today thus i'm down with fever. All in a sudden with just one bad flu on me.
Thats me yesterday after i went out with Ash to get some new shoes for work.
After 1030pm, Elly and her guy came to ma house... Its been 1 year i guess not seeing her.
Ailah & Elly
Pose pose!
Selamat hari raya girl... maaf zahir batin.
Had my dinner with Ash after back from JB
We GoT No Plan... Its raining yesterday..sianz... Thats all Abt Ash!
+++++ThIs BlOg BeInG UpDaTeD By AiLaH`22 a.k.a DeAdSoUL,SwEeTiEpIe LoVeS MiLkShaKe+++++
+++++WaDeVaR I wrOtE NOt GoNna CoNcErn AnY OuTcAsT ExCePt My TrUe SoULeSs FreNZ+++++
